In Search of Silence.....

A Silence deeper than the heart’s cadence,
A silence beyond every human sense,
A silence that deafens,
A silence that thunders,
In search I am of a silence within.
Hidden deep inside heart, mind and soul

Where visions vanish, thoughts subside,
Where unity exists, where divinity dwells,
A silence that elevates,
A silence that enlightens,
In search of beauty, no words can describe,
Unending a craving, no primal desire can fulfill.

Where desires do cease, temptations do end,
Where breath is unheard, when emotions desist,
A silence of infinity,
A silence of eternity,
In search of a silence, where consciousness expands,
In search of a silence, where living begins.

PS: For people that know me closely enough will understand what I am talking about in this poem. My quest for understanding the deepest self, the self that is sent onto this earth with a purpose has begun.. And the silence is just a means to that end. I believe in purposeful living. Everyone has a purpose why he/she was born, and maybe the fundamental search is to find out that purpose, while many ignore it. Living begins the day, you realise that purpose.. else mayeb we are all existing like plants, like animals etc.

Am I Alone?

Sometimes I ponder, am I a loner.
And I yet do wonder, for I am a winner.
Different I seem, intricate to comprehend,
Sometimes objected, yet many seem to understand.

Every step I take, something’s there to learn.
Every failure does make, the heart more to yearn.
The will is strong, yet there is doubt.
There is unity, yet mind’s internal bout.

Visions exist, yet deviations persist,
Temptations so wrong, difficult to resist.
Focus to hold, though challenges come untold,
Life is a mystery, beautiful to unfold.

Something’s there to share, with everyone around.
My thoughts or emotions aren’t unfound.
With every person something common I find,
I’m not alone, like everyone, one of a kind.

The Cloud

Why is there so much gloom?
Why so much pain, unending.
Why do your tears touch my eyes?
Why do you wail for me?
Daughter of the land and the skies.

Four years ago, on this very day,
When the journey had began, of my Fay, and me.
I was in joy, in wordless bliss,
Taking every step together, hand in hand,
Your tear I felt on my eye.
In joy, you showered on us a blessing,
But, we wail now with all joy missing.

You witnessed our love, day in day out.
A messenger between us
When miles apart we stood.
A shoulder I could lean on,
When the pangs of separation did hit.
A silent spectator as we parted,
A pain filled partner as I mourn.

My friend,
Today you hide my tears with yours,
My screams with the thunders you roar.
And till the day I cuddle in your parent’s arms,
Stay along in success, pain or bliss,
Sharing moments, most senses do miss.

PS: written on 23rd June 2006, after almost an year of breaking up wtih my ex love. The symbolism here is special. The day i walked hand in hand with her for the first time four years ago, the cloud showered his blessings on us by raining. I remember that day very well. But this day after four years, when we no longer were together, i found the cloud sheddign tears, maybe to cover mine. The person that promised me a lifetime of her love was no longer there to share that love, but my buddy the cloud was there as a slient spectator.

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Smile the sun, smile the sky
Make smile the sea, its wave that fly.
The birds and brutes, smile to free
Their pain in grief or melancholy.

Smile your lips, smile your eyes,
Smile with love that forever tries
To make smile your heart, deep within
Though lost is life, kith or kin.

Smile the clouds of pain in you,
To make the pain, itself untrue.
Smile the leaves, though fantasy,
Watch them cuddle, with ecstasy.

To touch, to feel, to kiss.
Nothing can match such timely bliss
The lips provide with love,
An affectionate smile, is all above.

And even when down, lost your sinew,
Comforting is only the smile in you!

PS: Someone help me with a name for this. wrote this poem ages ago

Love Eternal......

Emotions invariably infinite conceal,
Intrigue or implore, yet hard to reveal.
Impotent a heart unable to feel,
Its loveless ness, its anguish,
That leaves a taint of languish.

For an infant, a mother to caress,
For a juvenile a lover to possess,
For an elderly a wife to address,
Is all that makes life a boon,
Even if obscure impediments do swoon.

If life is a lamp, love is its oil,
That blazes it both achievement and foil.
For lost is all pain and wicked turmoil,
If one can see that infinite light,
However aggrieved or deplorable his plight.

Love is the reason for creation,
Love for one’s self causes ambition,
And loveless a life lacks in nutrition,
That crops in the heart selfishness,
And decimates the sense of selflessness.

Love is no crime and no lover is a swine.
For love in any form, is himself the divine

Alone and Apart.......

A darkness filled sky,
So dreadful and sore.
How hard do I ever try?
It's beauty shows up no more.

Where gone those shining black eyes,
That once enriched my soul.
Like the clouded sun in the sky,
Left here I am just sole.

Where lost that beauty filled face,
What emotions it did portray!
O that lovely smiles of humble grace,
How hard in words it's beauty to convey.

The faintest of her sweet touch,
Touched the deepest memory of me.
For crave I do to touch so much,
No greater joy did ever me.

Is my life just an illusion?
Or just a mere dream.
There is no sense to my evolution,
With you it really does mean.

Now, my lone longing heart,
Stands like the dark dreadful sky.
From within I am torn all apart,
Left here with pain; agonized as I cry!

O Lord...

I stand on my feet weak,
When I see my neighbor cry,
When no one has the will to try.
I will fight, I will serve,
To the needy I will help;
O Lord, give me the strength I need!

I realize what is wrong around me
When I see nature in plunder,
When everyone to obsessions surrender.
I will strive, I will love,
For empty hearts I will fill.
O Lord, give me the peace I need!

I wage a lonely war,
When there be no hope,
When the future seems an uphill slope.
I will struggle, I will die,
But from those ashes I will rise.
O lord, show me the path of thee!