If Only, again...

If only, If only I could turn back time,
And Sing again with joy our love's sweet rhyme.
If only, issues never went out of hand,
If only this agony my heart could withstand.

In my own world love made me blind.
Always believed our love, one of a kind.
And barriers so huge never came in between,
If only I felt the tremors within, unseen.

Joyous every moment, enchanting everyday,
Those times we spent together, me and my fay.
If only, I knew what my senses did miss.
IF only, I could pull myself, outof this abyss.

Love is a feeling, love's divine emotion.
Love is so huge and wide as an ocean.
If only, I knew no ocean I could own,
If only I guessed, when the seeds were sown.

Alas, If only the times remained the same,
and life never played with us, this brutal game.
If only, you were ready to walk hand in hand,
I'd be out of this torment, my heart can't withstand.

PS: Written on 2nd August 2005, at maybe the most disastrous period in my life. Its not common to see so much agony in my poems. Infact I had not written a single poem between July 2005- February 2006 except this one. I did not want my agony, to inflict pain on anyone else or on me later when i was stable. Love can be the greatest source of inspiration for a person and can also be the greatest disaster to him. I have seen the best of life through love and the worst also. But I still believe in love, and still firmly believe that a caring, understanding, uplifting spouse can really help fulfill your physical, emotional and spiritual needs. Love is divine... for every person that might have seen some sort of agony through love or marriage, just don't give up on love. It is divine.